It's only been 1 year since i last open the oxford clinical medicine book and it feels like..."shooottt, mana pegi sume ilmu2 tue...*cries*..Oh my endocrine, respi, hemato cardio rotation..." Next year ada neuro, rheumato, infectious disease, and nephro pulak... Elective in sg buluh is so-so.. Not that bad.. Dapat jugakla revision dr student uitm yg lagi pandai dari kiteorg time2 skg ni kut.. Cop "final year" tu takde maknanya if u still dont-know-it-all.. Urghh big-time! Tamparan untuk belajar, belajar, belajar...but a lot of people - better enjoy holiday sambil elektif sebab nnt balik penang da nk kena pulun habis-habisan for the remaining 5 months and once you start working, u know how "great" it'll be...so..better plan you holiday and elective properly or else nanti menyesal...!! Or you can really think the other other way round... Either way...*sigh* Another 1 month to go.

p|s: Im supposed to go to dungun today... i almost got to goO....ahH sedih.. i always knew, once u get pass ONE, jangan pandai2 find another... but it wont work if the plan is just not concrete... I never not-hate last minute plan and i never not-hate changing my bunga-bunga plan...ahH sedihH...


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Jikalau setiap hari merindu

There are things that we will never know or understand, not until we go thru it ourself... But a lot of times, i think, we cannot find the courage to make ourself to go thru 'it'.. and at that point, always, we are stuck to we-will-never-know.

I guess im gonna post this few hours earlier than the real-B-day-time. As usual, a lot of monologue-ing. Let it be a bit...immature.

OHDEAR, it's good to have the internet back the night before my birthday as the 'kesangapan' without it is at it maximum alrdy. Gile la. It really is a disease in today's world. Quote: Zaman kak shida college dulu xde sangat pun internet2 ni, now kena limit time to go online. U see, it's a disease, not really an addiction. Well, i'd say an addiction is a disease. But anyway, it's a gift that i got it back on tonite. yay!! MAkaseh abg tmnet.

Lets start with this; I first heard the song in 500 days of summer. Ok movie. Cute guy. I dont like the ending though.


so stay there
cause i'll be coming over
and while our blood's still young
it's so young, it runs
and won't stop til it's over
won't stop to surrender

a moment, a love
a dream, aloud
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs
(won't stop til it's over)

A birthday is like a New Year to me. Duhh. What i meant is the happy new year kind of feeling instead of +1 to 23 = 24. So, for that, today, tomorrow and the day after i want it to be rainbow days.

 

My definition of rainbow day; Rainbow day = Happy smiley day.

Um, everyday can be a rainbow day, but u dont get a 24hr rainbow day, i dont. (i can if i want, rite, i should actly).

Anyway, today, I got a freshly home-made rainbow cake for my B-day. Thank u sistah!



with lotsa Luvs!! i lyke!



Tomorrow, a spa treatment..Yay! I soOO HEART my sisterss. Next month, um, is there a rainbow color of handphone (tanda soal) --> Gedik-ness. Thank u ayahanda dan bonda. Handphone ku ini semakin... *menitiskan air mata --> Exaggerating. And the next day.........[fill in the blank dear].

I want to share this video..



The feeling inside it is just....beautiful. kan kan. *AawW

Im releasin my heart
And its feelin amazing
Theres no one else that matters
You love me
And I wont let you fall

Didnt i just said i want it to be a rainbow day today. Okay the reason why stalking is bad; even u thought it is just for fun, it can still turns out real bad. And now it gives me this kinda mixed-messed-up feeling. *sigh. Jealousy is unhealthy. And trust is an easy word to say but to stick it even guna gam gajah, gam kasut gam ape lagi...pun sometimes it just wont stick-perfectly. WhyOHwhy. That is why trust without understanding is just like....garbage. *what a word. Ugh, i gotta to learn to control this kind of feeling...Must.

Enough sigh-ing, it's my BIRTHDAYYY. My 23+1. I am not feeling old (I am not being in-denial). ANd I definitely want to have my rainbowwww days.

Lotsa love and hugs =)

Been watchig grey's anatomy at dayah's place all day and now im overloaded with it

There are things that we can do and can't do. For the things that we can do, do while we still can. And for the things that we can't, we can choose to do it if we want, while we still 'can' not to can't. (Just so that we don't regret 'not' trying)

I wanted to update since daysss ago but too caught up with a lot of other things. HEHE. Currently updating from sis's house since the broadband at home is hampeh-ing itself, with only half-screen laptop while the other half is currently used to watch khalif's racing car show (or else, there's no way im gonna update this blog)

First and foremost....Alhamdulillah... All praise to Allah for u-know-what... Everything.. No word can ever explain how grateful i am.. Alhamdulillah.. And congratulation friends!


So that's end the POP PH rotation. End of Degree Part I. Well, there's another big part coming for the remaining 6-7 months of med-skool. Another torturing hopefully as enjoyable as the POP PH rotation. Seriously, it was a tough with its own ups and downs time, but a really really enjoyable ride, of course with the whole bunch of fun-people around to share the ride.

So now is the elective time a.k.a stress-free-i-wanna-relax-big-time!. I wonder how im gonna go thru this 6-weeks of elective in sg. buloh hospital. Dont ask me why i chose that hosp.

2ndly, the night after we finished the exam, went to Tao-sushi kat autocity juru for some binge-after-exam time. OHMYGOD, there's no way im going to eat with them ever again! Gile giant kut diorg nih! MAkan laju gile...banyak mana tu xyah citerla.. But the food was superb. I dont think we took picture. Apa2 pun berbaloi jugakla 57 hinggit aku. ehehe.

3rdly, went to Teluk bayu to celebrate jibam's birthday.

 

The once-be tokna's kampung. How i missed the place. Seeing the house that is still there, sadly, it is no longer ours'. Pictures credits to anep and marisa..



Spent the whole morning playing and beach-ing... Whole morning. Okay, these people can really be out-of-control when it comes to games.. galah panjang..baling selipa..bola tampar..soccer...ape lagi...Gile banyak tenaga kut diorg ni...



And not to forget...the water...memang kecut la segala kulit2 yang ada...ehhe



but it was fun!



Super fun!



the sweetest hubby and wife



the sweet



the un-sweetest among the sweetest.. no worries dear.. go up, up and awayyy... egege



3rdly, went for a short trip to LAngkawi with them...



with along tag along,



for her-pinggan-mangkuk shopping spree.. It was indeed a very short trip, 3 days 2 night, but it was super! If only we could add another day, then it'll be just perfect kan korang. We stayed at PAntai Chenang. The beach was nice and clean..



a perfect dating place... uhukkuhukk..*tercekik



took a ride on the cable car,



jump on a very high bridge on top,



with a fascinating view..



The next day, we took the ferry to pulau payar...



for modelling???



for snorkelling...!!! (but there's no way i am fit for this activity, the life-jacket hates me),



and finally shopping at kuah with along. I wish i could join them to hop-on-off island.. and be as fertile as they were now (telan segelen air kt dayang bunting tu kut budak2 nih).. lol..

So this is the short version of my update. I wish i could upload more pictures. Later la kut. But if and only if the internet bekerjasama. Or else, refer facebook je le.. Hopefully they upload it la.


ok, enuf said. HAppy holiday and elective-ing people! ENjoy!

Jika hidup harus berputar
Walau sedalam mana hati terluka
Biarlah berputar

Okay. im tired. No, my brain is tired.. that is for sure. Ya Allah, please instill the poor brain more strength to go thru these few days. Few more days. OHMYGOD. Pediatrics. Please, please let the love for those sweet-little-innocent-makhluk-kecil-smiles makes me love the subject more. Must put my heart into it. Must! Must!

Simple. Happy. Full of life...and dance-able. The 'rich' at heart will always brings great joy.



p|s: The fallen will get revenge with great joy. Mesti!

I just feel like i need to do this activity.



u know. to clear some thing out of my mind.

chill.

"I may not always know what im doing but i'll try to make things better - i promise i'll ask for your help, i cant do this alone, but if you'll take a chance on me we can do great things together, i promise if you believe in me i'll find the courage to reach for your every dream"

p|s: A simple thing can become a wonderful gift if u put a lot of love and happiness in it. walaupun hanya tuka tayar under the not-so-hot sun, tp berpeluh macam hape je. *evil laugh*

I cant wait for November.




So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we cant go back we're on our own
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks that you're not here
And i think I'll want to be alone
So please understand if I dont answer the phone
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All my eyes can see is all I know
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

There are some battles that you just cant lose and must continue to fight.